Just when I thought I had a few more days before the arrival of our baby girl, everything happened and it happened fast. It was a nice warm Saturday and we were out with friends having coffee. I had been contracting since the night before but they weren't anything to think of. Well, while we were out, the contractions started to get a bit more intense and that is when I realized if it is going to happen, it is tonight. We got home and I took a shower and made the call to my doctor. I was told to go to labor and delivery to see if something was going to happen. We got to the hospital at around 8:20pm and I was checked out. Dr.Goldman came in and did a test to make sure that my water had not broken yet, however, there was a small rupture so he had to decide what he wanted to do. At 10pm we were told that we were going to have a baby. We got checked into our room and settled in. Dr. Goldman came in and broke my water and about 5 minutes later, my contractions started to pick up. They were easy to get through and so I took this time to get into the tub to see if they would ease off a bit. Boy was I wrong. I think I was in there for a good 20 minters before I felt like I had to get out because I was slowing needing to push. I got out of the tub and paced the room back forth, allowing my body to start the transition into active labor. I remember at some point getting annoyed with Brian and our Nurse Darla, whom by the way was the best ever!! They were telling me to breath deep and slowly and relax and I just wanted to tell them to do this instead of me. Well, before I knew it, I had to push and there was nothing stoping me from doing it. I told Darla this and she checked me and sure enough it was time!! The room quickly filled with nurses and Dr. Goldman and things were under way. I tried not to push right away as I wanted my body to do the work naturally and it did. Soon the contractions were so close together and the end was very near. I laid there on my bed watching everything happen around me, yet had this sense of fear that I was not prepared for what was about to happen. As I was pushing Mackenzie out, something in my body told me there was a problem, but I didn't think anything of it. Mackenzie's head came out and for some reason I decided to touch it, suddenly life was right there!! I gave another push and was told to stop. I did not know why, but stopped and waited and then pushed the rest of her out. Once she was out, the room was in sort of panic and somewhat quiet. I had no idea what was going on and told to focus, so I did. I looked over at Brian to see if I could tell by his face what was happening, but I couldn't read it. Soon after, I heard someone call for the NICU nurse and that is when my heart stopped. I wanted to know what was going on, but no one would answer me. Dr. Goldman told me to focus on the final part of labor and then all would be good. So I focused and after a few stitches, more pain, I was able to get my answers. Mackenzie's cord was wrapped around her neck not once, but twice and it was so tight that it had turned her purple. She was delivered and then wished to the little station in the room where they worked ever so hard to get her to breath and cry. Sure enough she did a little. I was able to hold her for a few seconds and then had to hand her back to the nurses. I was heart broken at this point because all I wanted to do after all I did, was hold my baby and look into her eyes and fill up with love.
I eventually got my wish and she was all mine. I cuddled her for as long as I could, and it was time to start the bonding. Our first night, or should I say morning, was long, tiring, but completely worth every minute. There isn't anything I would take back, there isn't anything I would change, I love Mackenzie just the way she is!! She is my pride and joy, my sun to my shine, the love of my life!!
Mackenzie Correia Drepaul was born April 22nd, 2012 at 12:33am weighing 8 lbs 8 oz and 20 inches long!
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