Well we have survived week one and let me tell you, it was full of new things. We have experienced what no sleep feels like, a baby needing you for everything and a mommy who is on demand for milk! I have to say that I love my new life. I love her little toes and fingers and cries. I love when she looks at me and those big eyes of her tell me everything in so little noises. I love when she falls asleep on my chest or in my arms. I love when she sleeps and these little noises come from her crib and they make me fall in love with her even more. There are times that I sit and cry because I am just so happy with my new life and how I now have to make decisions that are not only going to affect myself, but my daughter as well! WOW, daughter! It is such a funny word, but it has so many meanings. I am her protector, her life support, her shelter, her shoulder to cry on, her lap to fall asleep in! I am hers! No matter the little amount of sleep I get, the amount of dirty diapers I have to change, the amount of hour she spends feeding in my arms, I always have a sense of joy and completeness! Mackenzie truly is a blessing in disguise. We had lost 2 pregnancies before her and they were heart breaking, so when we found out we were pregnant with her and things were moving along, we knew that this was our baby and our time!
Everyday is a challenge, but it is the challenge of life and one that I am so happy to be a part of! Being a parent is the absolute most amazing gift in life! I am so happy that it is my life and I get to share it with a wonderful husband and beautiful baby!!!
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