LIttle Miss Mackenzie has arrived!!

Just when I thought I had a few more days before the arrival of our baby girl, everything happened and it happened fast. It was a nice warm Saturday and we were out with friends having coffee. I had been contracting since the night before but they weren't anything to think of. Well, while we were out, the contractions started to get a bit more intense and that is when I realized if it is going to happen, it is tonight. We got home and I took a shower and made the call to my doctor. I was told to go to labor and delivery to see if something was going to happen. We got to the hospital at around 8:20pm and I was checked out. Dr.Goldman came in and did a test to make sure that my water had not broken yet, however, there was a small rupture so he had to decide what he wanted to do. At 10pm we were told that we were going to have a baby. We got checked into our room and settled in. Dr. Goldman came in and broke my water and about 5 minutes later, my contractions started to pick up. They were easy to get through and so I took this time to get into the tub to see if they would ease off a bit. Boy was I wrong. I think I was in there for a good 20 minters before I felt like I had to get out because I was slowing needing to push. I got out of the tub and paced the room back forth, allowing my body to start the transition into active labor. I remember at some point getting annoyed with Brian and our Nurse Darla, whom by the way was the best ever!! They were telling me to breath deep and slowly and relax and I just wanted to tell them to do this instead of me. Well, before I knew it, I had to push and there was nothing stoping me from doing it. I told Darla this and she checked me and sure enough it was time!! The room quickly filled with nurses and Dr. Goldman and things were under way. I tried not to push right away as I wanted my body to do the work naturally and it did. Soon the contractions were so close together and the end was very near. I laid there on my bed watching everything happen around me, yet had this sense of fear that I was not prepared for what was about to happen. As I was pushing Mackenzie out, something in my body told me there was a problem, but I didn't think anything of it. Mackenzie's head came out and for some reason I decided to touch it, suddenly life was right there!! I gave another push and was told to stop. I did not know why, but stopped and waited and then pushed the rest of her out. Once she was out, the room was in sort of panic and somewhat quiet. I had no idea what was going on and told to focus, so I did. I looked over at Brian to see if I could tell by his face what was happening, but I couldn't read it. Soon after, I heard someone call for the NICU nurse and that is when my heart stopped. I wanted to know what was going on, but no one would answer me. Dr. Goldman told me to focus on the final part of labor and then all would be good. So I focused and after a few stitches, more pain, I was able to get my answers. Mackenzie's cord was wrapped around her neck not once, but twice and it was so tight that it had turned her purple. She was delivered and then wished to the little station in the room where they worked ever so hard to get her to breath and cry. Sure enough she did a little. I was able to hold her for a few seconds and then had to hand her back to the nurses. I was heart broken at this point because all I wanted to do after all I did, was hold my baby and look into her eyes and fill up with love.
I eventually got my wish and she was all mine. I cuddled her for as long as I could, and it was time to start the bonding. Our first night, or should I say morning, was long, tiring, but completely worth every minute. There isn't anything I would take back, there isn't anything I would change, I love Mackenzie just the way she is!! She is my pride and joy, my sun to my shine, the love of my life!!

Mackenzie Correia Drepaul was born April 22nd, 2012 at 12:33am weighing 8 lbs 8 oz and 20 inches long!

Hello due date, goodbye due date!!

Well my due date has come and gone and I am still pregnant!!! I was really sad when I went to bed Monday night knowing that I can still be pregnant until 42 weeks. I decided that it was time to take action and make a plan with the doctor. He swept my membranes in hopes that with in 48 hours I would go into labor. If that doesn't work, then we would make an appointment at the hospital to get induced so that I don't go past 41 weeks because of all the pain I am having. The membrane sweep hurt so bad, but it was something I really wanted to try. He did call me back in the afternoon telling me that I will be admitted at the hospital Sunday at 7am! It is really exciting to know that I have an end coming and that no matter what happens this week, I get to meet my little girl!! I am so excited and cannot wait, but there is a bit of anxiety and worry. I feel that I am not going to stick to my guns with my plan and have what I want because I will be in a lot of pain. I am scared of being a new mom and feeling that I won't be doing anything right! All just in my head, right? Let's hope so!!! I know we are going to be great parents and know that everything is going to work out the way we want it too!!! My little girl will be in my arms before I know it!

5 days!!!!

Well I have 5 days left to my due date and there is nothing happening!! I am only 2cm dilated and it is killing me! I wish that my body would just get into gear and have this baby girl because the amount of pain I am in physically is breaking me. My emotions are all over the place and I find it hard to talk to people, especially those who are having their babies before me, but are due after me! I had a huge break down yesterday and did not want to do anything, see anyone, or talk to anyone. I do not want to go past 40 weeks, but I know that I am going to because, well that is life. It has never been easy for me, so why would this be easy for me? This little girl deserves to be in my arms, all warm and snuggled, not in my belly!! She doesn't know what she is missing!! I guess it is time to get back to walking!

Still waiting for my baby!

Well, I have 13 days left of this pregnancy and let me tell you, I have never been more ready. I am in so much pain with cramps and contractions it is getting hard to focus on the things that I need to get done. I left my appointment today with some sadness because I am so ready to meet my little girl. I want to hold her and swaddle her, lay with her and just watch her fall asleep. This last month has been so trying and I am doing all that I can to stay positive and focus on what is to come, not what hasn't come yet!! My biggest fear is going over my due date, and I do not know how I am going to handle it. Everyone tells me to enjoy this time as I won't get it back, but to be honest, this is a time I can't even enjoy in the slightest bit! The one good thing that has come of this is that I get to get ahead in my studies and clean the house as much as I can so that Mackenzie can come home when she is ready, to a nice and clean house!!!

Mackenzie, mommy is very ready to meet your sweet little face, so please come and show it!!!