One Month, oh my..

Well, my little girl is one month old, can you believe it? It feels like just yesterday that I was in labor and meeting her for the first time. Now we are celebrating that fact that she is a month old. This past month I have learned a lot about babies, myself and my relationship with my husband. He is absolutely wonderful with not only Mackenzie, but with me. He understands what it is I have to do for her and how much time it takes. He never rushes me and is always there when I need him the most. We are both figuring out her schedule and trying to work with her, rather than against her. Every day I get to see her grow into the beautiful little baby that she is. Her smiles when she has gas, or is sleeping, her little noises when she is sad or happy, the way she looks up at me when I am talking to her or calling her name. I love her smells after her baths and the way she cuddles up to me when she is sleepy. I just absolutely love her!! My world  is now filled with such love and joy that you only feel when you hold your baby for the first time! Those little fingers that grasp your big finger make every thing seem so much better, especially when you are having a bad day.
I cannot wait to watch her grow, but I don't want it to be too fast as I am loving each milestone that she makes, but at her slow, steady pace.
So to Mackenzie I say, little girl, stay true to yourself and never let anything or anyone tell you otherwise. Life is full of surprises, good times and and, and what you make of life will be yours forever!!

Mommy loves you!

Reaching our third week!!

Well we are going to be reaching our third week with Mackenzie and it has been nothing but bitter sweet. She is an amazing baby and loves to sleep, which her daddy and I love!! We are sleeping from 11 or 12 to 4 or 5!! I couldn't ask for anything more right now because she is allowing us to sleep. However, we have  run into an issue with her and not going to the bathroom. A few days ago she stopped going and it has broken my heart because when she is in pain, so am I. The past two days have been trying to get her to go and watching her cry in pain, and there is nothing we can do for her. I hate it when I see babies so small in so much pain and need relief, but yet there is nothing as a mother we can do, but give them comfort, which at times, is all they really need.
Mackenzie is growing in so many ways and I cannot believe how much she is changing. Her facial features are maturing and her movements are as well. Tummy time is allowing her to lift her head from side to side to allow her to explore what is around her. When she is sitting in your arms, she will look at you with her big, beautiful eyes and just stare into yours. Her nosies let you know what she wants and new ones are beginning to come through. She loves bath time as she sits there and splashes away with her feet. She loves lying on her boppy and looking around and doing her exercises. Everyday is so new and fun to watch her and how much she grows. I am absolutely in love with her and this new life and will never ever trade it for anything else!! Everyday I looked forward to the new beginnings and journeys that Mackenzie takes us on!!

Week one was so amazing!

Well we have survived week one and let me tell you, it was full of new things. We have experienced what no sleep feels like, a baby needing you for everything and a mommy who is on demand for milk! I have to say that I love my new life. I love her little toes and fingers and cries. I love when she looks at me and those big eyes of her tell me everything in so little noises. I love when she falls asleep on my chest or in my arms. I love when she sleeps and these little noises come from her crib and they make me fall in love with her even more. There are times that I sit and cry because I am just so happy with my new life and how I now have to make decisions that are not only going to affect myself, but my daughter as well! WOW, daughter! It is such a funny word, but it has so many meanings. I am her protector, her life support, her shelter, her shoulder to cry on, her lap to fall asleep in! I am hers! No matter the little amount of sleep I get, the amount of dirty diapers I have to change, the amount of hour she spends feeding in my arms, I always have a sense of joy and completeness! Mackenzie truly is a blessing in disguise. We had lost 2 pregnancies before her and they were heart breaking, so when we found out we were pregnant with her and things were moving along, we knew that this was our baby and our time!
Everyday is a challenge, but it is the challenge of life and one that I am so happy to be a part of! Being a parent is the absolute most amazing gift in life! I am so happy that it is my life and I get to share it with a wonderful husband and beautiful baby!!!